And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
2 Corinthians 3:18 (The Message)
How did I get here again? I really thought I had figured it all out last time and I was going to be free and clear to enjoy my new life, my new body. To be able to shop without tears, to get up and get ready for the day without dreading the getting dressed part… to be able to go on vacation without fear of the same old thoughts- What will I wear? What will people say when they see I’ve gained the weight back yet again. Y’all, it’s exhausting! This battle satan and I have had for the past 26 years just gets so darn old sometimes and really makes me what to give up. But it’s when I’m at the end of my rope- yet again- that I feel that gentle nudge to return to God…to go to the only One who can help me with this struggle.
Those of you that know me well, know my weight has been a struggle most of my life. I can claim with almost certainty that I am the “Biggest Loser”. I have lost and gained, and lost more weight in the past 26 years that I care to admit. I’ve done it all…the programs, the self help books, I even went as far as to try to listen to some silly cd that was supposed to hypnotize me into a better body. Yet, here I am again- on the road to “recovery”. My biggest struggle is an internal one- a question that nags me each and every day… How can you, Shelley, lead a health and wellness ministry when you can’t get yourself together for more than a few months? Well, I may not have it all together all the time, but I can say that each time I fall I learn something new and these falls are getting fewer and farther between .
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